Monday, January 31, 2011

To get that whiny shit off the top of my page

Freaking out.

I really hate not being able to get a job. I keep going in and out of hospitals since the doctors can't find out why I am having such a problem eating and sleeping. It's hard to get a job when you can't drive either. (In my state you have to have drivers ed, even over 18. I can't afford that at all.) I'm getting so scared that we can't pay the house rent and I don't know what to do anymore. I just can't stop shaking and being scared out of my wits by the prospect of being homeless again. I mean, I'm even lucky I have this laptop, one of my best friends gave it to me for free and I feel terrible about that... I just don't know what to do exactly any more and it's scary.

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I sure could go for some weed and some pizza.

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This blog will more than likely be for my thoughts and stupid things like that since I don't tend to vent and the doctors insist that I should do that more often because of my growing hypertension and depression that is getting worse. Now- Don't worry, it's not going to be me just whining and bitching about everything that goes ~wrong~ in my life, more than likely it will just be my thoughts about upcoming events and other things like that. Who knows. Part of me is tempted to make a comic blog for my every day events but in picture form, but I need a scanner because my tablet is being really stupid and not working at all it seems. (It's frustrating, I just bought the thing and it already doesn't work.)

I'm not quite sure how to talk about myself, I'm not that interesting of a person. I sit around on my computer most of the time. I mean.. I just made an art studio with a friend and we are starting to make products for that, more than likely comics since we plan on selling at conventions and they caused a big fuss about what products you're allowed to sell. I need to get my ass in gear and actually START on my comics, but I am not sure exactly what to write about at all. I mean, I have stories in mind but they seem a bit boring in my opinion. I mean, I wouldn't want to read them, so who would? I have two stories in mind, the one I wrote for the NaNoWriMo last year which didn't get far because I got so bored of it, and the one with a few original characters that the leader of the studio has a massive erection for. I am more so tempted to follow through with the second one but I am not even sure about the story line. I wish I had help from a writer. My ex was one and promised to help, but she turned into a conniving bitch and won't talk to me at all because she's jealous of my current girlfriend. I don't even want to deal with her anyway, she's gotten quite annoying on insisting to be a hipster.

And I wish Steve hadn't quit his job like a dumbass, we will never be able to pay the house note off now. I have been trying to pick up commissions so I can help out more but it seems like no one wants any since I can't produce work to show ONLINE. Maybe when I see Taylor next I will use her scanner. I draw all the time on paper but I can never show it, it sort of sucks.
Anyway, pulling this post into a close, I do hope whoever follows my blog enjoys it and I hope I might be able to make some friends with some of my followers!