Monday, January 31, 2011
Freaking out.
I really hate not being able to get a job. I keep going in and out of hospitals since the doctors can't find out why I am having such a problem eating and sleeping. It's hard to get a job when you can't drive either. (In my state you have to have drivers ed, even over 18. I can't afford that at all.) I'm getting so scared that we can't pay the house rent and I don't know what to do anymore. I just can't stop shaking and being scared out of my wits by the prospect of being homeless again. I mean, I'm even lucky I have this laptop, one of my best friends gave it to me for free and I feel terrible about that... I just don't know what to do exactly any more and it's scary.
Introductions and the like.
This blog will more than likely be for my thoughts and stupid things like that since I don't tend to vent and the doctors insist that I should do that more often because of my growing hypertension and depression that is getting worse. Now- Don't worry, it's not going to be me just whining and bitching about everything that goes ~wrong~ in my life, more than likely it will just be my thoughts about upcoming events and other things like that. Who knows. Part of me is tempted to make a comic blog for my every day events but in picture form, but I need a scanner because my tablet is being really stupid and not working at all it seems. (It's frustrating, I just bought the thing and it already doesn't work.)
I'm not quite sure how to talk about myself, I'm not that interesting of a person. I sit around on my computer most of the time. I mean.. I just made an art studio with a friend and we are starting to make products for that, more than likely comics since we plan on selling at conventions and they caused a big fuss about what products you're allowed to sell. I need to get my ass in gear and actually START on my comics, but I am not sure exactly what to write about at all. I mean, I have stories in mind but they seem a bit boring in my opinion. I mean, I wouldn't want to read them, so who would? I have two stories in mind, the one I wrote for the NaNoWriMo last year which didn't get far because I got so bored of it, and the one with a few original characters that the leader of the studio has a massive erection for. I am more so tempted to follow through with the second one but I am not even sure about the story line. I wish I had help from a writer. My ex was one and promised to help, but she turned into a conniving bitch and won't talk to me at all because she's jealous of my current girlfriend. I don't even want to deal with her anyway, she's gotten quite annoying on insisting to be a hipster.
And I wish Steve hadn't quit his job like a dumbass, we will never be able to pay the house note off now. I have been trying to pick up commissions so I can help out more but it seems like no one wants any since I can't produce work to show ONLINE. Maybe when I see Taylor next I will use her scanner. I draw all the time on paper but I can never show it, it sort of sucks.
Anyway, pulling this post into a close, I do hope whoever follows my blog enjoys it and I hope I might be able to make some friends with some of my followers!
I'm not quite sure how to talk about myself, I'm not that interesting of a person. I sit around on my computer most of the time. I mean.. I just made an art studio with a friend and we are starting to make products for that, more than likely comics since we plan on selling at conventions and they caused a big fuss about what products you're allowed to sell. I need to get my ass in gear and actually START on my comics, but I am not sure exactly what to write about at all. I mean, I have stories in mind but they seem a bit boring in my opinion. I mean, I wouldn't want to read them, so who would? I have two stories in mind, the one I wrote for the NaNoWriMo last year which didn't get far because I got so bored of it, and the one with a few original characters that the leader of the studio has a massive erection for. I am more so tempted to follow through with the second one but I am not even sure about the story line. I wish I had help from a writer. My ex was one and promised to help, but she turned into a conniving bitch and won't talk to me at all because she's jealous of my current girlfriend. I don't even want to deal with her anyway, she's gotten quite annoying on insisting to be a hipster.
And I wish Steve hadn't quit his job like a dumbass, we will never be able to pay the house note off now. I have been trying to pick up commissions so I can help out more but it seems like no one wants any since I can't produce work to show ONLINE. Maybe when I see Taylor next I will use her scanner. I draw all the time on paper but I can never show it, it sort of sucks.
Anyway, pulling this post into a close, I do hope whoever follows my blog enjoys it and I hope I might be able to make some friends with some of my followers!
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