Freaking out.

I really hate not being able to get a job. I keep going in and out of hospitals since the doctors can't find out why I am having such a problem eating and sleeping. It's hard to get a job when you can't drive either. (In my state you have to have drivers ed, even over 18. I can't afford that at all.) I'm getting so scared that we can't pay the house rent and I don't know what to do anymore. I just can't stop shaking and being scared out of my wits by the prospect of being homeless again. I mean, I'm even lucky I have this laptop, one of my best friends gave it to me for free and I feel terrible about that... I just don't know what to do exactly any more and it's scary.